Graham really wants to be present at the baby's birth. My sister and I were there when my brother was born and I think it's a wonderful experience for a child to have. It's a natural and life changing process that a child will forever remember.
With a stepchild, things are a little different. Part of me would be thrilled to let him experience something so special. To be there for such a unique moment..To give him an experience he will take with him the rest of his life and hopefully form a healthy view of childbirth. But part of me hesitates. This is my first birth and I don't want to feel distracted or that Isaac's attention is anywhere but on me and the baby in those vital moments. With the next baby, I imagine I may feel more at peace with additional family around, but this birth seems so precious and personal. Especially after what we have gone through over the past year. I don't know what to expect and I want the things I do have control over to be simple.
So, little Graham, you whispered in my ear to ask me if you could be there when the baby is born, but I know that this isn't the birth for you to witness. Your baby sister or brother be waiting to meet you on the other side.
xo little man
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