We will be meeting soon so I thought I would introduce myself. I'm Amanda, I am twenty eight, and I am pregnant with my first baby. I've been looking forward to meeting you for many years, but now that the opportunity is on the horizon, I am a little nervous. I know how powerful you are and a piece of me worries that I am not strong enough to face you. I know that you will only push me as far as I can go and not further, so I need to trust in that. My body was built to do this and I know I will come out the other side a new woman; but that doesn't take away that little whisper of fear. It's not fear that you will treat me too roughly or hurt me or my baby; it's a fear that I won't harness all the strength I need to meet you. It's fear that I will feel like a failure if I get too overwhelmed by the intensity you bring. I know I don't need to worry, but writing these words helps me release those fears as they won't be helpful as our time to meet draws nearer. When you finally come to meet me I will greet you with open arms...because with meeting you I get to meet my baby.
all yours,
amanda
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